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(no subject) [Sep. 18th, 2009|11:58 pm]
For some reason I am always desperate to go "home", home as in Nevada City home. Every time I think about the seasons, and the first rainfall/snowfall, the leaves falling, flowers blooming, I think of my parents home. Every time I think about relaxing and being comfortable I think of their home. I am so desperate to go back to the time of high school and being 'home' I feel like I missed all the wonderful times of being there because of all the bullshit that happened, and now I am so desperate to go back.
I hate living here in the bay area. I was born and raised a county/mtn girl. I want/need to be in a small town. I miss it, and it makes me depressed. I don't like the big cities. I need to get out of here, but can't. All I can do is visit every few months, and I'm pretty sure my parents are sick of me coming. But I can't stay away for too long. I need my "fix" of the relaxing mountain life. I need to get out of this city.
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(no subject) [Sep. 4th, 2009|05:51 pm]
[Current Location |95014]
[mood |chipperchipper]
[music |Muse-Falling Down]

Haven't updated in a while. Nothing much has happened.

Had surgery on my wrist to remove the cyst. Aint nothing like having 2 bum wrists, but hopefully this will give me use of my right wrist back w/o pain. My motion has gotten a lot better since the surgery and the scar is healing beautifully.

Got my EMT license but can't get a job until my wrist heals. Not allowed to lift anything heavy for 6 weeks...so all I do is sit in front of the tv all day. It is boring as hell. I wished I had a yard so I could have a garden or something. I hate living in an apartment! I want to work!!

My Dad found out last week that he has another tumor growing on his kidney. =( It's only been a year! I can't believe it's come back already! So now we wait for 2 months, see how much it grows and then decide whether or not to take out the whole kidney or just part of it again. They don't want to take out the whole kidney cuz of his diabetes, but if we just take out part a tumor might grow back...A lot to think about. My Dad seems to be doing ok emotionally and physically. He's strong.

That's pretty much it. I'm loving life even though it keeps throwing me curve balls. I am still SO much in love with the man of my dreams. I am very ready to marry him, I just got to wait for him to be ready...hurry up already geez!!!!

I miss my friends...
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(no subject) [May. 31st, 2009|10:55 pm]
So it was Manny's and mine 1 year anniversary this weekend. We went up to SF for the weekend. We stayed in the most amazing hotel in Pacifica, about 10 miles south of SF. The hotel was right on the water, and our room had a king size bed, couch, tv, FIREPLACE, and desk. It was so nice sitting in front of the fire listening to the waves crash on the beach. So nice! The whole weekend was absolutely amazing. We had a great dinner at Scoma's on the wharf, we went to the museum and went on a sunset cruise around the bay, and of course the Giants game. It was one of the best weekends I've ever had.
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A rant about rudeness [May. 31st, 2009|10:48 pm]
So Manny and I went to the Giants game today, and besides seeing an excellent game, I also saw a whole lot of rudeness by a bunch of assholes.

So Manny and I were walking around the stadium when it hit me; I had to go to the bathroom, badly. So we rushed to the nearest bathroom which was of course, very far away. So we get there and there is a huge line, of course. So I get in line and wait, a few minutes I get to the front of the line. I see a woman exiting the stall and I start walking over to it. Right when I am about to enter it a woman walks in FROM THE EXIT and goes in the stall, I stop her and say "the line is over there, it's my turn" and her response? "I really have to go." and she slams the door in my face!!!! So then I see another woman walking out of a stall and I go over to go in and the woman who was standing behind me in line, and who had seen what had just gone down, takes it!!! WTF??? Seriously bitches??? How rude can people be? "oh I really have to go!" Fuck you!! I had to go too but I waited in line like everyone else!!
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So what hasn't happened? [Apr. 27th, 2009|06:33 pm]
[mood |stressedstressed]

So much stuff has happened in the last few days.

I found out last week that my Dad could have possibly had a heart attack. He went in for a stress test, and they found out he had little to no blood flow to his lower heart, which means he either had a heart attack or has severe build up in his arteries. Either way he has to have surgery to widen the arteries. We are still waiting to find out when he will have the procedure done. So not only does he have Diabetes and Cancer, he now has heart problems!

On top of all that, my dad found out today he is being forced into early retirement. His last day of work is May 14. So basically, he was laid off. He gets a severance package, but it isn't much. So he basically has to find another job, or be forced into early retirement. All this stress will be great for his heart... =(

On to better news. Katie was here this weekend. We had a great time. We went to Santa Cruz, and had a haloz nite at Kurt's, we went to the Winchester Mystery House, and watched 17 Again. I thoroughly enjoyed the whole weekend. I wish it could have lasted longer. Damn you work and school!

Thats it.
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(no subject) [Apr. 20th, 2009|03:30 pm]
[mood |happyhappy]

So I have had a pretty good couple of weeks. I had last week off of work, which amazing and much needed! I go back to work for two days and then I'm off again for 5 days. The joys of working at a school. It sucks tho because I don't get paid time off and I kinda need money...badly. Although a few people still owe me money so I'm hoping to get that back soon, so that will help.

Anyways, last week I went up to my parents house for a long weekend for Easter. I stopped and had dinner with my friends, who I hadn't seen in a long long time. I really hate living so far away from them. But anyways dinner was so much fun!! I miss those girls soooooo much!! And hooray for free Sake shots from the owner!!

The weekend was really nice. Me and the parents just kinda relaxed all weekend. Although we went to Reno on Saturday. That was fun, I won a dollar! Whoo! I went through a hug box of duplicate pictures, that took 2 days(there were a lot of pics, and there's a whole nother box). We played croquet, and pool, and cards. My mom and I went on a lot of walks and just talked. I really liked that. Easter dinner was delicious. And that was about it. Overall the weekend was wonderful. I hardly get to see my parents anymore, so it was nice to spend time with them.

This Thursday, Manuel's best friend(and my new friend); Katie, is flying in to San Jose to spend a few days with us. I am super excited to meet her! I've had a chance to talk to her a few times, and she is really nice! We have a lot in common so I know we will get along really well. We are going to do a bunch of stuff this weekend, like Santa Cruz, Winchester Mystery House, etc...I think it's going to be a really fun weekend and I can't wait til Thursday!

Also, Manuel is finally, officially, moving in. He practically lived here already, so now it's going to be official. We've slowly been moving stuff in, so in a couple weeks, we should have all his stuff in. I've been waiting for this day for a while now! It makes me happy. =)

That's it.
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I don't know why but all my posts are when I am sad [Apr. 14th, 2009|05:23 pm]
So my right wrist has been hurting a lot for a couple months now, I'm used to my left wrist hurting but now it's also been my right wrist. And it's pretty severe pain. Well a month ago I noticed a bone or something poking/sticking out when I move my wrist(it wasn't there before) so that was a bit concerning, so I decided to go to the Dr. She basically said it's either broken or I tore the ligaments that keep the bone from sticking out, and that either way I would need surgery to repair it. So she sent me to get xray's and referred me to a hand surgeon. So now I have to wait and see what the hand surgeon says on May 7. So here we go again. I guess 3 surgeries on my left wrist wasn't enough/ Now I had to fuck up my right wrist... =(
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I am terrified [Mar. 23rd, 2009|04:16 pm]
[mood |sadsad]

So I went to the Doctor today to get help for my stress and wrist pain. As most people know I'm pretty tightly wound, can't relax, always worrying, thinking, analyzing, planning. And this causes me a lot of stress because I just can't relax. So because of the physical symptoms I have been experiencing in relation to the stress(chest pain, stomach pain, sleeplessness, headaches) I decided to get some help. I also went to my Dr. because one of the other major reasons I am stress is because of my wrist pain from the injury and surgeries 10 years ago. I cannnot function with this pain. I don't get to do things I love like playing basketball and golf. It's even very difficult to get through the day at work. So I was expecting something that would help my pain AND my stress.

Well my appt. didn't turn out the way it should have. My Dr. prescribed me Cymbalta, which is an anti-depressant. Now for those of you that know me well, know I have a history of depression. Depression that was made WORSE by anti-depressants!!!! I lost 2 years of my life because of those medications. If I had never taken them I would have been ok, but because I took them I became SEVERELY depressed. I know I took Cymbalta back then, but I can't remember if it was one of the ones that made me worse. I explained this to my Dr. but she of course didn't listen. She decided to "take a chance" So she is basically taking a chance on my life. I am completely terrified of taking this medication. I have been crying all day and don't know what to do. I can't go back to the way I was several years ago. I can't go through that again. It was horrible. I can't even explain it, but I would never wish it on anyone, it was that horrible. And because of all this, today I have been re-living those 2 years, and it just makes me cry harder. I just can't go through that again.

And to top it all off, she said that my wrist pain is cause by the stress too. She of course didn't listen to me explain that it's a permanent injury. I have scar tissue around my nerve so whenever I move my wrist it hurts. She didn't listen to that, and said MAYBE the Cymbalta will help that. Yet another drug that might possibly maybe work for pain. We won't give you a drug that's guranteed to take away your pain, I am just going to let you suffer. AND I am going to give you a drug that might make you go through the worst part of your life again!!!!

Medicine at it's finest!!
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(no subject) [Mar. 9th, 2009|03:20 pm]
So I started my new job a couple weeks ago. It's not bad. I get there at 9AM and basically help out the professional chefs. I make sandwiches, pesto salads, fruit cups etc..., fill up the refrigerators, set up all the stuff, and then the kids come get their lunches and I ring them up. It's pretty easy stuff, just a lot of physical labor, especially the dishes, so it's kind of exhausting, but I'm off around 2:30 and I get the weekends off. It also pays a lot more than the theatre so that's a plus. I wasn't sure about working with the kids, but they are so polite!! It's amazing! I also really like the people I work with. So all in all, this job is a lot better than the Theatre! So it all worked out in the end! =) I don't dread going to work anymore.

Speaking of the theatre, I talked to the boy who was caught in the booth with the HR Manager and got the whole story. Everything I wrote was correct, but there are a few extra tidbits. Apparently they had been "seeing each other" for about a month leading up to this incident...AND JAMES KNEW ABOUT IT!! They had been seen kissing each other during work on a number of occasions But of course James didn't do anything about it and allowed them to work together! but he wouldn't let me and Manuel work together... He's such a great manager...

They still haven't figured out what's causing my stomach pain, I still have to get my CT scan done. And now I'm having some chest and arm pains so maybe it is related to stress. I guess I should probably have my chest pain checked out to make sure it's not my heart, but it's probably just stress. I need to relax!

I need a vacation to some tropical island...
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Karma is a bitch!! [Feb. 17th, 2009|05:41 pm]
So some drama has been going on at my old job. Manny still works there so thats how I get all my info. If you read my last post, it talks about how I quit because someone "complained" about me and Manuel working together(even though we never did anything wrong). Well the person who supposedly complained was our Human Resources manager(who is basically just an assistant manager). I don't know what his exact complaint was because James won't tell me, but it was enough to make it so that James didn't want us working together. So anyways thats the back story, now on to the good stuff! Now I don't know all the details some of it is speculation, but needless to say I am 99% sure it is correct.

Last week, James went up to the projection booth to talk to our human resources manager and found him and one of our floor staff engaging in "innapropiate behavior" aka sex. He, by the way, is in his late 40's and the floor staff just turned 18! So needless to say, he was fired a few days later, and guess who took his job?!?! Manuel!!! So now Manny gets to work Monday thru Friday in the mornings!! That is the shift that everybody wanted!! There's hardly any business during the week in the morning/afternoon, and he gets weekends off! He also got a raise!!

So karma truly is a bitch! This guy complained about me and manuel(who never did anything wrong), and now he's the one who's without a job! and Manuel took his position! AND, for James, who instead of focusing on the two people who were actually doing something wrong and punishing them when they first started doing it(everyone knew this was going to happen between the HR manager and the floor staff), he only focused on and punished me and Manuel who weren't ever doing anything wrong, and he ended up losing his best employee(me) and gained a lot more headaches because now he has to do a lot more paperwork because he had to fire his HR manager! So fuck you James, HR Manager, and Century Theatres it serves you right!!!!!
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